12/2/07

In this world, your friends will fall flat on their faces.

In this world, your friends will fall flat on their faces and break their noses for no particular reason. You too, one day in this world, will fall flat on your face and break your nose for no particular reason.

You will do this on your own for it's your own falling and falling is a private matter in this world, but only at first. You have various reasons for it. You have to learn how to do it and do it well. Stand in the middle of your living room, the kitchen will also do if it's a decent size. Make sure you've got solid shoes, shoes with holes won't render good results, if you've got holes in your shoes, get them repaired, repaired ones are more beautiful than a new pair. This exercise will unveil so many exquisite revelations about yourself and you'll even understand why you can't let go of your old shoes. (side note: twice in a lifetime, you are allowed to try this with someone else's shoes but only twice - trust me on this; the first because you just have to, the second because shoes travel in pairs)

Let's get back to it: you are going to need stimulation for this (it is more important than you assume), you will need a concentration point, not necessarily a person, just a thing. Some use alcohol, some use cigarettes, coffee or water, you can even just use a thought, think of that special person, for instance. (No, not the one you want to kiss, the one who actually loves you) But if you choose to think of them, just for that few minutes; forgive everything about them that you usually can't. You can take it back later.

Stand up straight. Use your stimulant. Take the shot, take a big drag, if you are using water, splash it all over your face, you could also soak your whole body in water if you wanted to. No matter how much you want to concentrate, it's not going to work because you are on your own so you might just as well stop believing that you can do anything on your own; but rules are rules and you are going to have to do this first fall by yourself; just to learn to do it well so that when you fall with others later, no one gets hurt.

Are you there? If you are still there, do not close your eyes. It's crucial that you keep your eyes open as you fall. Do not take a deep breath; breathe normally. Now in one split second; think of your mother, in the next split second, think of the time you learned to swim, (if you don't know how to swim, think of the time you will and who will teach you), the truth is everyone knows how to swim, many just do not want to try. This is difficult; you're going to have to let go of a lot; your muscles for one, your fear of keeping your eyes open, your fear of sleeping in the middle of the bed, let them go, you can take them back later.

Now, just do it, stop questioning and considering; In this world, some answers only beg a question that is not there, stop answering questions that aren't being asked and instead, admit your answers are only what you love and what you want. Admit to wanting. Admit to wanting to sleep in the middle of the bed, away from the edge, away from the door. Even if it is to see what it's like. You can take it all back later.

Let go of your muscles, look at the ocean that is right by your feet, you are going to swim; how delightful! Fall down, face first, then limb, what was it you wanted? Does it matter?

Welcome to the world. You've fallen, now you can fall with others. Only I should tell you that I lied earlier, you can't take anything back in this world. What you do is what you are. Now sleep in the middle of the bed and remember you have forgiven at least someone in this world.

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